A poem written by Lee Sonogan
A free verse poem with no particular structure.
Trust yourself. You’ve survived a lot, and you’ll survive whatever is coming. – Robert Tew
Behind the scenes,
I have been holding on to a secret,
Hinting at it many times over,
Conjunctions distract me from the internal screams.
It has been 5 years since I was diagnosed,
Talking it out helps when you panic,
Long past the venom of depression,
Anxiety is a level changing consistent.
Coping with uncharted terrain,
Putting myself intentionally where my mind tells me not to go,
Identifying what makes me feel normal,
Mostly I am at peace when I am alone.
Challenging my fears and doubts,
The unconscious voices remain small,
My spirit wants to overcome,
But the brain can not eliminate it all.
Back then I thought I was different,
Now I see the ego was in control,
In reality, experience has been enlightening,
Wisdom has been guiding me as I get old.
Suicidal thinking back then was pondered,
Time has healed most of those wounds,
Will grows stronger inside my soul,
Creativity now allows me to create my memorable tunes.
You are not your thoughts,
Action displays a version of the self,
Establishing balance within a disorder,
Causes change of evolution and personal wealth.
There is a necessity of virtue,
Any intelligent being aims for this goal,
Without it, the negatives make you lost,
Demons will then consume you whole.